It’s when you give up, give in, surrender and stop trying so damn hard that you find what you have been searching for all this time. The thing you have been missing in your life and senselessly trying to fill the void with other activities, empty relationships, false hope & promises and daydreams that would never materialize or reach fruition. It’s when you finally decide to forgo all hope of attaining happiness that you find the thing that you want was really not that far away from you in the first place.
Whatever you want to call it…fate, destiny, the universe….has put what you were always meant to find right in front of you. It usually is a fortunate accident that you find what you are searching for….often times without the intent of making discoveries in the first place.
I’ve waited so long for this to come…for a moment in time I thought I had found that and then had lost it…but then again, if what you found is now lost…perhaps it wasn’t really yours to begin with. It took me a long time to accept that, but I am glad I did. In doing so, I’ve opened my heart to other opportunites to explore and truly reflect inward and learn about myself.
To completely love someone, you must first love yourself. You must accept yourself for both the accomplishments and mistakes you have made. You must accept that there are somethings you can change and other things you can’t change. You must remember that when you do find what you are looking for, you fight with every breath and effort in your body to hold onto it because you know already the consequences of loss. You must remember that you cannot make someone love you and that true love needs to be reciprocated.
I never though I would find love again…it was an impossible task and too difficult to accomplish. Boy, was I wrong again. After looking in all the wrong places…I gave up.
And that’s when love found me. <3
